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Love is a funny thing. I grew up with an abusive narcissist (my mother) and even though I vowed that when I left that house I would never speak to her again, I still love her and talk to her and visit her. We usually fight and are not on good terms ever but I can not help but miss her sometimes.

The universe and love are two very cruel creatures. I hope eventually over time you can find peace with this. You're not alone in your battle. I'm going through a similar thing myself my wife left me two and a half weeks ago and I would do anything to have her back even though I'm traumatized from this.

You're not alone. I'm going through the same thing right now. Came here because my impending loneliness hit me like a brick. I was horribly mistreated by someone I've been with for 15 years, and I would still melt in his arms if he walked through the door right now. You can't help who you love and you can't just turn it off.