A newly found heart

I think I have regrouped my thoughts. To find someone now would be the ultimate slap in my face. It wouldn’t be fair for somebody to have to be a part my journey that has a timeline on it. Being forced to join in my struggles and not receiving the full benefits of a reciprocal rewarding relationship .

yes, I long for it but I know even if it was remotely possible it wouldn’t be a complete joining of mind, body, and soul. I think I have read somewhere that that is what a loving relationship is supposed to be…. Am I wrong??? If I am please correct me..

I am hopeful that others struggling can overcome and not come to a point in time where you are standing in my shoes.

I wish the severe pain and suffering, (mental and physical) that all people face on a daily basis would just disappear and let everyone live a life of peace and comfort, without fear and judgement, without having to worry about everything you do or say offending someone. To be able to live and be themselves without others who can’t accept that there are beliefs and thoughts and voices and people and feelings that are different than there own. To realize that they deserve the same respect as everyone else. To respect everyone else.

I did it again, I strayed off my original thought.

It's never too late for love. I think love starts with loving ourselves. Took me years of therapy to see this.

Alone is a word for a human who is unconnected to other humans. I have had this trouble for soooo long. It's about trust or the lack of. I'm trying to connect .....

ABB

I humbly submit that you need to take a deep breath. I truly feel your pain. Currently I am struggling to move my family to Tennessee because I cannot afford to live in Boca Raton Florida I was being helped by a very controlling mother and mother that put a rift between my wife and I causing my wife to have an affair which I help push her into She then got pregnant we decided to work it out for our children when we found that out I decided to go ahead and work with her and then even decided to get back together with her and raise the child with her if he didn’t want to be involved and if he did I would let him she ended up having a miscarriage we are still trying to work through all of our problems every day has its amazing moments and every day has its terrible moments it’s very difficult right now but I have faith and I believe we can do it we have a couples therapy tomorrow. I tell you this not to get your pity but to let you know that even when someone like me feels they have the love of their life and can’t imagine life without her so much to the point I’m willing to raise another man’s child in order to have her, Goes struggles every day I make mistakes that push her away all the time even though that’s the last thing I want to do what I’m working on and I think will help you is to stop judging stop judging yourself stop judging others don’t think about timelines enjoy every moment for what it is go outside walk around go to a mall and just smile at people someone will smile back and who knows maybe you’ll have a conversation and maybe you’ll find someone that has a shorter timeline than you that needs love more than you do and you can be that person that you’ve been looking for for someone else never give up hope get up every day believing that what you’re looking for will come to you. And when you stumble remind yourself if I get up and keep going I will get where I want to be I have to tell myself that hundreds of times today but it’s worth it!!! I pray you find what you’re looking for God bless

I found a heart and lost it quicker than a blink.

Lost in the darkness, feeling the little bites of it as it consumes my being . I am not sure if I have had any episodes today, there are no marks on the chart

@Iamwhoiamwhoami

Your sharing here is brave. Your doing a great job of posting here when your able to.

I wish for medication that can help you and others who suffer the same .

ABB 💜