Concentration and memories
The struggle with my brain issue is troubling to me for reasons that don’t make sense. Some reasons do but most don’t.
What started as just momentarily losing focus and not remembering what I was doing, then progressed to losing the past few moments completely. Then randomly losing thoughts, forgetting names of people I have known for years, I have even forgotten my own name on several occasions. I have actually tried to make sure this app is as visible and easy to find as I can so I can “find” my way back when I have a more severe senior moment.
I am afraid of not finding my way back here.
That is the biggest part of this struggle that troubles me the most
not remembering a lifetime of failures , I am ok with that part. But actually losing my memories of everyone here, that is scary.
I have been able to use different concentration methods to guide me back but I anticipate it won’t be much longer that I will not be able to do that with any success. That concentration keeps bringing me back to the memories here . Granted it is getting more and more difficult remembering how to navigate here , but being here and remembering this community is worth every second of the struggle.
I am also starting to have balance issues, equilibrium problems? Not all the time just a little more frequently than I am comfortable with. I am sure this has to do with whatever is going on in my head as well.
What should I do if they decide that it is progressed enough that they insist on admitting me immediately? I am truly afraid that is who’s going to happen.
No matter what happens tomorrow. To everyone here in the entire 7 cups community I’m forever grateful, appreciative, and thankful to have had the opportunity and privilege to have been a small part of this amazing community.
Not knowing what is going to happen next for most might seem ideal, for me it is getting to be increasingly difficult to handle. I am getting frustrated with this nonsense.
