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I just started Therapy: I had chest pains a few months ago late one night; I told myself if I wake up in the morning I will go to the Doctors office. I woke up, still alive and I went to the doctor. The Doctors office put me in a wheel chair and carted me off to the Emegency Room. While waiting in the ER I stood up and walked out of the ER. They called me, but I refused to go back. Instead I looked to see if my Insurance paid for Mental Health supports... It does cover Mental Health. I am here because for years October 10th has been my add it all up date once a year to Continue on or to Expire... I have always continued on... I told my Therapist about October 10th and she had me sign up for 7cups on October 8th. I found the 50+ section and just decided to post this.... I will not investagate any heart issues, but I like going to Thearpy.... Therapy is more affordable than dieing and paying ER bills, Now that I typed this I am fated to live to 110 years Continued.
I am very glad to meet all of you. My goals have nothing to do with a long life, but a possibilty of a short life has my imagiantion chirping.
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Today is motel living with puppies... I imagine they are happier with me. I anticipated tomorrow as the day I discover if my new job is worth the effort after a budget is made with the paycheck. If not tomorrow? Soon...
how am I? I have no time to concentrate on my manufactured miseries. I have decided for now that the universe is real, but my thoughts on the universe are false fabrications... are my observations on reality foresights or afterthoughts?
Reminder to self: You are a stupid person who would love to be smart, you can only imitate intelligence.
this may sound harsh self criticism, but you have never met the arrogant self righteous version of myself. always... be kind to others....
It was a marathon effort today to interact with 7 cups. I
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I cancelled all my Therapy sessions since I
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lots of stuff put into order yesterday. Today take my car to the shop... Waterpump is going out... its a Toyota and has the water pump buried... who ever gets the job will get some cussing out of the way...for me to do it I would need jack stands and tools I have neither with me. Ouch goes the wallet!!! Ouch goes the wallet!!! Its a chant sing along....
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My last job, I kind of spontaneously walked away from without notice... I have been negotiating with them to not fire me and pretend that I gave them notice. They like me and they might be concerned... This is the email my boss just sent to me:
Ok , just had a meeting with hr and Wade, and they filled me in on what is taking place . I understand you needing to do this, but I am very sad about not getting to work with you anymore. You have been absolutely the best employee I have ever worked with and I am going to miss fixing vehicles together, not to mention you saved my life. Please stay and touch, and God bless you and yours. Live long and prosper my friend.
This is my pattern: Boring, Boring, Boring, Boom!!! I did not expect him to do that!!!! Trust me on this; Everybody likes me and the folks who hate me, dont mind me being around...Now? If I just liked myself? If I liked myself would the wheels of motivation still turn for me?
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motel living with puppies is all about routine to meet the needs of puppies. Motel breakfast at 6 am..... I thought about my old boss being sad most of the night and that has started a routine of sad thoughts... It will pass when I hit the Freeway... my car should be out of the shop today.... so? Hurt the Wallet! Make it pay! Ha.... Its better than car payments they only help out rich folks. A repair bill helps out a person trying to keep the lights on and I picked a small family owned repair shop.
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again... an on going feeling: easy tasks seem impossible. but? When you focus your thoughts you realize it is False. Easy tasks are still easy. Something has change in the brain that was not present yesterday. A crowded store made me feel constricted yesterday that feeling never left, now? Im hesitant to enter another crowded space... I have a script to follow to enter the crowded space with a smile on my face... Im practicing the smile now...happy eyes, happy eyes.... is the mantra... Im going in!!!!
Ok I gave the listener section a try tonight... it was a search
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motel/ hotel living. I
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what wierd dreams I had last night. I was imprison in a small cage, but with comforts by my Veterinarian from my home town. I had to escape and I did! I woke up after I escaped.
The dream was more disturbing and vivid, horror film style, so no need for deep discriptions....what fun! And puzzling.... my vet is the best person you would ever meet? My puppies must have transferred their experience to me? Ha! That makes me smile...
