Good Morning
I just started Therapy: I had chest pains a few months ago late one night; I told myself if I wake up in the morning I will go to the Doctors office. I woke up, still alive and I went to the doctor. The Doctors office put me in a wheel chair and carted me off to the Emegency Room. While waiting in the ER I stood up and walked out of the ER. They called me, but I refused to go back. Instead I looked to see if my Insurance paid for Mental Health supports... It does cover Mental Health. I am here because for years October 10th has been my add it all up date once a year to Continue on or to Expire... I have always continued on... I told my Therapist about October 10th and she had me sign up for 7cups on October 8th. I found the 50+ section and just decided to post this.... I will not investagate any heart issues, but I like going to Thearpy.... Therapy is more affordable than dieing and paying ER bills, Now that I typed this I am fated to live to 110 years Continued.
I am very glad to meet all of you. My goals have nothing to do with a long life, but a possibilty of a short life has my imagiantion chirping.
Good Morning! I slept fine for the most part I woke up with the worries and they still are picking at me. I need to make a mental list to resolve 1 or two worries by tomorrow.... I need to focus or things will spiral out of control. Do, do, do....
@PeterJC
Hi Peter,
Self care is underrated. In between your do, do,do's eat well, breath well and play your favorite music. I'm shakin off things this morning myself, so I'll try and take my own advice as well.
See you later.
@OrangeYouGlad68
Thankyou...
Good Morning! Not a good sleep, but I feel rested. I did my half awake/ half asleep paranoid scenarios. I have shaken those off with full aleartness. But those silly thoughts are now apart of my thought patterns... they are plausible scenarios, but they are always wrong, but even as I type I
@PeterJC
Today is the last paycheck day, until I find new income.... living on savings, have to watch every penny. I have enough to last 3 months unless the car breaks down or something like that. Everyone gets paid this month! The 3rd month if I have to go that long, only local folks get paid and out of town folks will get an apology from broke folk... good luck if I owe you money! I prepaid my therapist 3 months in advance with the knowledge of the starving months ahead...
Good Morning... It is time for Morning Coffee... my motivation is to hide in a dark room.... lets pretend a different motivation and head to the coffee house... I will give everyone an individual compliment when I get there... that will shake the darkness.
Excellent! Two task completed.... returned Cable modem and paid the rent on my workplace rental.... even though I
Good Morning! Lots of dreams last night. Dreams full of drama and sentimentalism. Im puzzling over the meanings. My brain might be tricking me into making contact... that would not turn out good.
@PeterJC
I started my quest to get started doing artwork again by starting to reread Bullfinches Mythology the fist myth is of Pandora, then Prometheus... My art thoughts is to create an entire show just on those two myths. Fire, flames, Titans, Women, loss, defiance, and hope.... the book is now public domain, so the audiobook book version could play in the back ground during the opening....paintings, prints, and sculptures.... I hate sculpture just because it is hard to store, so? Weatherproof sculpture?
@PeterJC
just the research alone is enough to be a distraction from my moods....
@PeterJC
it seems to me that having an artistic temperment is both a gift and a curse~ 
not having one myself, i can only guess.
i hope you do find a way to express that mythology in art, on video, and/or online, and get oodles of hits on it~! i do love the way the mind produces mythologies in every day life,, and how art brings that out and makes it tangible~ ,,
@GustyOne4U
I am also thinking on the lines of archetypes taught through mythology. Hero with a thousand faces type of stuff. I need to practice talking the talk to make the show interesting. I dont want to be classical. My last show was people at work and out in public. I need to keep it low cost. Im soon to be broke. So pencil drawings until I get income.
@PeterJC
many great works of art started with a sketch~!
Dreams are so intriguing and luring@PeterJC
Good Morning, just give me coffe and I
@PeterJC
Vapers at work....... all Im saying..... they amuse me.... the humorous rant I could participate in...
Pandoras story in my mind is the clay potter on the wheel of life and Karma activity. Making vessels to keep memories and corresponding emotions inside. Pandora opened her pot/ vessel and let out everything good and bad (if you mix both versions of the story) out. Hope is the only thing that chose to stay. The rest both good and bad ( you can put names to them) flew away , fleeting and capricious towards us. But is hope such a good pet to have? I dont know? Doesnt it create a desire to recreate a moment in time? I can say these things with or without the question mark. Should I make and fill pots? Should I keep the pots empty? Should I quit making pots/vessels?
I texted this in.... it should be humorous to reread later.... ha! Im full of poo, and it is safe to tell me so.
@PeterJC
i do enjoy your meandering posts, Peter... and i admire your willingness, and ability! , to answer yourself~! so often we rely on people who are not present to give us what we need, but when we can manage Self-Care, then we never have to do without~! Well Done~! 
@GustyOne4U
Thank You! Therapy is new to me... Ive been self sufficient for decades and failing on multiple level by myself, but still moving forward ....or not? Maybe changing all the time? Decay? Bread that turns moldy? Im spending money on help so Im all in....
@PeterJC
some times just keeping our heads above water is all we can do, Peter~ walking on that water will just have to wait! 
Good Morning,
I wake to the paranoia this morning, but it passed when my feet hit the floor... I have CPR this AM...
@PeterJC
i'm glad to hear that the paranoia didn't last... is that Cardio Pulmonary Resusitation training, that you are going to? that is such a good thing to know~! i was pretty good at it when i had my training, but that was decades ago,,, still one never forgets.
Tomorrow is Therapy day.... I always take the entire day off. Afterwards I will go to the public library and write a cover letter for someone who asked me to. Today I was all over the map with inner skull darkness... but I brought that under control without speaking a word. CPR class went well...my thoughts about Pandora: Is hope a feeling of Longing? Rumi had poems about longing, I could read those at the library tomorrow...
@PeterJC
I just finished Therapy this morning. That always gives me a feeling of puzzlement.... next stop is the public library for the rest of the day... the library is most comforting activity for me.... my safe place of feel goodness.... I do not have a high IQ, not super smart, but I am well read. I have good comprehension and good learning skills that stems from an openness to the new.
@PeterJC
it takes a lot of awareness to be a good poet, i think Rumi had that... love his "Quotes", too~
experiment to see how to post pictures...
@PeterJC
@PeterJC
hmm? Im done experimenting for now....
@PeterJC
perhaps this will help ? hope so~! would love to see your picture posts!
1) you search for a image using your Browser (google, or Bing), enter the name of the image you want and SEARCH;
2) left click on the image to isolate it, and get a good URL (address) (the URL should end in .png or .jpg or .img. but never .doc or .ua
3) right click (middle finger) on the image and select "Copy Image Address" (left click on that)
4) come back to 7Cups and every page has an Image Box in it,, it's a square with mountains and a moon in it at the top right of the window
5) click on the Image Box and a sub-menu will open. at the very top is the little address box for the URL.
6) right click on that address box and your mouse menu will offer 'Paste'.
7) when you click on Paste, the URL (address) you selected will appear in that long narrow window/box. (you can RESIZE in that box on the left of the picture.
8) go down to the bottom of that mini-page, and click OK to enter it in the forum window, where you can type a comment (be sure to use ENTER to move the cursor down below the picture, or you can type above it , first. watch where your ' I ' cursor is.
9)if you want to bring this post to a particular person's attention: skip a space and add the person's name with an " @ " in front of it; (example: @GustyOne4U)
10) then POST as usual, the image will go onto the Forum Window, and the person will get a Notification. 
p.s. don't use PhotoBucket, it has a timed delete hidden in it... and twitter and facebook can both remove the picture...
my favorite is Pinterest, or Pinterest.co (britian). you can check the URL before you post, if you're not sure.
@GustyOne4U
thank you very much! Now to find a place that does not watermark!
@PeterJC
test doodle... just a test... I guess....
@PeterJC
photobucket put a watermark on it... ok
