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I just started Therapy: I had chest pains a few months ago late one night; I told myself if I wake up in the morning I will go to the Doctors office. I woke up, still alive and I went to the doctor. The Doctors office put me in a wheel chair and carted me off to the Emegency Room. While waiting in the ER I stood up and walked out of the ER. They called me, but I refused to go back. Instead I looked to see if my Insurance paid for Mental Health supports... It does cover Mental Health. I am here because for years October 10th has been my add it all up date once a year to Continue on or to Expire... I have always continued on... I told my Therapist about October 10th and she had me sign up for 7cups on October 8th. I found the 50+ section and just decided to post this.... I will not investagate any heart issues, but I like going to Thearpy.... Therapy is more affordable than dieing and paying ER bills, Now that I typed this I am fated to live to 110 years Continued.
I am very glad to meet all of you. My goals have nothing to do with a long life, but a possibilty of a short life has my imagiantion chirping.
Good Morning,
like all mornings with a huge to do lists, the this is impossible thoughts invade the morning mind. One thing at a time, and the impossible will be completed by Noon... added to the list: change oil in the car...the light just came on this morning.... Im living out of a motel for one month, up to 3 months? Then? I dont know? The future happens....we make ourselves insane just for a paycheck, which is synonymous with Coco Puffs... give me a big bowl of Coco Puffs please! Im asking for it!
Good Morning!
So far nothing to report.... dealing with other people who are high stress is a skill of mine... this is what I a m doing today... Im Kayaking their rapids and cataracts....
they have moments of appreciation.... but it does not seem like it... It is mostly emergency emergency emergency.... and Im like? It does effect me, but I shake it off, I guess? I watched many folks die in a flood when I was just A third grader. The California fires remind me of that time... my 1970sh flood took 150 or so Peoples lifes... drowning and burning has to be an awful way to go... the imagination has a panic and a struggle, and despair... the full gambit of misery before the end... my disaster was Colorado BigThompson Flood. We were camped on the mountain side when the huge wall of water flushed out the Gulch... Devils Gulch is its name... I feel for those California folks.... they will never get over it. It will become who they are....
@PeterJC
im back to my little corner... I went out exploring 7 cups and posted on several relevant forums. Im still Chat room shy. Instant reply is not my cup of tea....
Not a big fan of chat rooms either@PeterJC
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I still have not Chatroomed.... I watch other folks text... I can see how they are able too. I Spell out letter by letter: T—o—o—
read the word in my mind: Too
move on to the next word. But in snail pace...
Good Morning! Morning coffee with a new set of motel folks... I woke up with the worries... there is plenty of worries, but nothing I can do about What ifs.....
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doing last minute laundry... and thought about my high school mythology class... King Midas captured and imprisoned a Satyr from the party parade of Bacchus... King Midas asked the Satyr, What is best for man? The Satyr answered, Life is most free from misery if one is ignorant to the evils of the future.... What is best for man? The best thing for man is to never be born; The second best thing for man is to die as soon as possible.
This seemed to have great meaning to me as a young person. But now? I think its meaning has changed for me. Im recently observing my depression as a feeling that happens before an event, then my brain attaches the event as the trigger to depression... I think the event is just a convenient happening for a lazy mind. Does that make sense? If it doesnt make sense, We could make Pizza?
@PeterJC
I prefer Pizza... Sense rarely has cheese...
Good Morning!
Im late! Good Afternoon! The adventure I had that Im not talking about! I have been on the road for 4 hours....
Good Morning,
decision building day.... coffee in the motel lobby and Im an only customer.... not very many cars in the parking lot...
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I worked night shift with folks who believed in Angels, I worked with folks that believed in UFOs, I have worked with folks who believed in FEMA death camps... now I work with folks who believe in Black Magic.... all the stories sound the same, they truly want to convince you, they talk nonstop... and because I am who I am, I also become an unbelievingly expert on the subject... I let them ramble, its like they cant help themselves ....
Good Morning,
the morning hotel receptionist is watching Hallmark Channel.. Sad preteens sad about Christmas... on the hallmark channel? They have happy conclusions?
Good Morning! My thought of the morning. Action and inaction can both butterfly effect into evil/good. When one has a thought like this it is always weighed in on Evil—Evil is always the conclusion... so? Thought is the cause of the effect?
Stupid thoughts....
Good Morning! 2010 was my perfect and last Thanksgiving. After it
@PeterJC
Ha the words of the self tortured: Romantic
good book.... fun read
or? Better yet!!!! This is more fun to read...@PeterJC
Good Morning! What wonderful positive feelings are flowing....its kind of uncomfortable in a way... my jubilant outbursts in public seem to make folks smile... my friends roll their eyes and say realistic comments to make me moderate the joy... no rhyme or reason for it... It wells up from no where...
I almost very unwisely shared a picture of a novel that I am a main Character in, that my Junior High School Through College girl friend wrote about us... I wrote that know full well that there is no us... She chose 2 or 3 others instead of myself... I should have no interest in being her 4th... Im always the in between stop before she finds another. But thinking about it makes me happy... as I wait for her most recent marriage to fail...
@PeterJC
Ha! Here is one for the tortured Romantic
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Unexpurgerated!!!! That
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Ethan Frome is the book of warning. .... it is a hard read with lessons you dont want to learn...
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That is done.... reality tomorrow
Good Morning! Im back to routine... I moved my Puppies in with me at the hotel... I thought long and hard about how to swing it...and they get more dog quality time if they are with me. I will have to wake up earlier... I also need to find dog parks in the city. I survived Thanksgiving with minimal reminders of the past... going back in mermory is bad enough without a time machine. With A time machine I would be completely miserable, unless? I went straight to the dinosaurs!!! That would be much more interesting... and? Thats what I should do with thinking back in time.... Dinosaurs! not my misfortunes...
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