Handling my shortened lifespan on my own
How do I handle the facts of my future on my own. I am scared. I am accepting of my fate. I just am not handling things very well. I am not sure I how to handle the future struggles on my own.
How do I get the strength to get everything in order so my passing doesn’t create a major burden on anyone else. Where do I get the strength to continue with knowing the certain outcome. I know my poor life choices have set me on this path of being alone on this end of the road. I guess I am just being punished for my life by being forced to finally experience emotions at this time of my life. I have lived with regret all my life, it seems like I dealt with regret about most decisions affecting my life. I don’t know how to continue on this path and handle it on my own.
This stage can be intense. You're not alone in this experience, nor with these questions. The answers are out there.
Thank you,
I do not expect any true “miracle” answers, nor do I expect any answers. I just find that the opportunity to post what I’m feeling/going through may possibly help someone else who may be experiencing similar things. I am probably wrong but I haven’t been completely shunned yet.
Everything will be ok my dear friend
Thank you.
I wish I could say that I believe you. Take care.
🌺Hi, dear fella, it seems that you have grown really mature and wise after all those experiences.
And pains you feel, the repentances, these have become the compensations for your perceived poor choices in life. 🍀
From my believer perspective, you deserve much more compassion,mercy,understanding,love... than what you think you should get.❤️
Most suppose that we cannot change our past, I think when we repent the bad things we have done , it is already changed. When we say deeply honestly that, If I had another chance, I would do this goodness and that and that, yes, it is changed. For us, for our souls, for who we are. ☀️
I believe that this life is lived to reach a final decision on ourselves to become who we want to be, to decide who we are by our hearts, we can not always succeed in proving this, but in the end you know it, the hidden childish frail wounded hopeful self of us.💖
Well, I don't want to sound weird or preachy or sth else, but ,this is my sincere approach, I am a romantic believer in Merciful God in Islamic way (I respect you with whatever you believe or not).(I believe that God loves people more than we can love Him.🌷
I wish you all the best. You will always find people who care for you here.🌻
Thank you and I think I understand what you are saying. I am not sure I fully understand but maybe if I reread it a few more times I will completely grasp it. I wish you the best as well
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
Hi love, I am so sorry to heart the hurt in your voice and that you are alone. WE are here I am here to listen and help you thru this. I know this is hard, I too have made poor choices and i have regrets. I pray you don't hold on to them. try to take each day a moment at a time. Sometimes a day at a time can be to much. You were strong enough to reach out for help, so this tells me , even during this hard time, you still have strength , you are strong than you think you are. I can't imagine having to make those plans for you self. but you can have it as beautiful or as simplistically beautiful as you choose. You have control, no regrets, your favorite things and colors. things you want with you and those you want around you. I hope that you find rest within your mind and not stress yourself anymore than necessary. You are wonderful for sharing and amazing to be here. Amazing because you made a choice you will not regret. To reach out to someone. I'm here we are BetterTogether😊😊
Thank you again,
A moment at a time is about all I can handle,
unfortunately, I have nobody that would come to a beautiful or simplistically beautiful event. But I am not even concerned about that, I have accepted that fact long ago, I appreciate your thoughts and will try and remember these thoughts and words. Thank you
@Iamwhoiamwhoam
Good morning, Thank you for the reply. I do understand that sometimes we won't have those there to physically support us. I pray that you are able to have peace and find peace. I know this is hard. My son passed suddenly and was alone, it hurts to know this. I will keep you in mind so that my presence is with you and if you a spiritual person that you find peace in that. If you are not there is also peace in knowing that you will be ok. Ok to love yourself, more than anyone else can. Knowing that the same people that you are concerned to remove to remove your belongings and that you don't want to be a hardship to , that those same people care enough to not let you be alone. YOU ARE WORTH LOVE, CARE AND COMPASSION. YOU ARE VALUABLE , YOU WERE PLACED HERE FOR A REASON. I'm here if you need to talk .
Thank you once again, I want to respond to this but I am not up to it right now.
Thank you for your strong words of encouragement and support. I am sad to hear about your son. I am ok with the spiritual aspect, I just am not sure where I am on that level of thinking. That is another topic of discussion.
As far as belongings removal, that would not be friends or family, I have none of those, that just is whoever ends up stuck with emptying the house for the next residents. I just have always been forced, granted probably by my own mind, to handle everything on my own and have always been stubborn about asking for help. I want to go out the same way . I want to minimize the burden of my passing’s effect on others.
The love,care, compassion and valuable statement, thank you and it does touch my heart but I am not yet in a place to believe that that relates to me.
I am thankful for your offer of being there if I need to talk, I have the need to talk a lot, but I don’t want to single out anyone here, to be forced to listen to my negativity. I’m so selfish in my feelings that it wouldn’t be fair to the other person because I am not a very supportive person, I don’t know how to reciprocate the positivity that I receive.
I am very concerned about being that selfish burden on anyone. Everyone has their own issues and lives. I can’t expect to have a friend if I can’t be a good friend in return.
Thank you so much for your kindness.
