I don’t know if I’m heading towards an addiction or substance abuse disorder.
I’ve always been confused about the difference. But I’m kinda scared about how I feel towards weed/alcohol. First time I smoked I was already buzzed & I’m pretty sure I got super high. Second time I didn’t drink but I still felt it. Now I’ve started drinking more, putting it my coffee this week, sneaking a little at night. Doesn’t having an addict parent cause you to be more likely to become addicted too? I liked how I felt and I want to feel it again, which is a bit scary. I’m just worried that if I keep sneaking around now, when the time comes I’ll be a high functioning alcoholic or I don’t know.
@depressedseahorse
Being as self-aware as you are and having the foresight to pull yourself back to understand this and look at the bigger picture, is not something everyone is able to do. I agree, that you bring up a lot of good points and it is valid that you feel this way and are concerned about this. What kinds of things have you thought about that might help get in front of this? Have you considered taking a break from all of it, to allow yourself to get centered and sort of regroup? What about considering a have a plan and someone to reach out to if you need help quitting?
Take care of yourself
