I know I'm weird.

I've got a strange addition, and I hate it, and I don't know how to accept myself with it. I'm addicted to being tickled. It's something I crave almost constantly, and I end up finding stories or videos of people getting tickled to satisfy myself. I hate loving something that others find weird, I can never talk about it, I can't ever express how I'm feeling because no one understands. I feel so alone, and the only way I know how to cope is drownd my head in stories. It's literally like a fetish or something, how I'd love to spend my time, forget about kissing in a relationship I'd rather be tickled. But I'm so disgusted with myself, the self-hate is very real. I think I'm so weird. I wonder if I'm the only one, I feel so alone in this weird problem. How do I cope?