Worried

My husband used to be on drugs really bad. I helped him turn his life around and luckily. All that is ever stuck in the back of my head now is whether he's back to doing them occasionally. I can't help but wonder and it worries me so much. He works night shift. I work day shift. So I only ever see him on weekends. I just always wonder what he is doing.

The other night we had a deep conversation about how I was worried about this. It makes me not ever be in the mood to mess around in the bedroom. He tells me he wants me to try it. I've never done drugs in my entire life and don't care to. I have 3 children. And just never had the desire not curiosity for it. I think it was pretty crappy for him to ask me to do drugs.

Now he has quit his job. He cannot keep a job. And talking about going to work with my ex who is was also bad off on drugs, he may still be but idk. I don't talk to him. I told my husband I felt that was a bad idea. But he doesn't care. He doesn't care about anything I have to say. Now I feel I ne d a better job that pays better since he can't keep one. but I have 3 kids and difficult for me to find another m

It all just keeps me in deep depression. I don't even want to go hang out with him and his friends or anyone. Makes me sleepy all day feeling like I'm not being a good mother or wife

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