Addiction
For as long as I can remember I have had an addictive personality. Some of my addictions I have found to be healthy(eg sports, vegetables, finishing work I have started). Others like drinking alcohol, nicotine, and THC I have found not only impair my better judgement but also can be detrimental to my physical and mental health. I start impossible arguments with my wife and have been known to say some of the most hurtful things one could say to their life partner. Alcohol is now on the verge of destroying my life. I don't really "fit in" to normal AA groups because I'm not religious so using "God" as the main pillar for recovery does not work for me. I need help before I ruin everything I've spent my life building.
@yellowField6986
What kind of help do you need?
And one more. There are no healthy addictions, what you call healthy is just an illussion. They lead you to an abyss anyway, feeding your ego what it desires.
I guess I need help training myself to ignore these harmful addictions currently ruining my life
@yellowField6986
Oh no, it's just your mind games. It doesn't work this way. An addiction is always much more cunning than you, you cannot just ignore it
Do you have any tips/tricks or a direction to steer me?
@yellowField6986
To steer where to?
First of all, I think it's not a proper method trying to find tips or tricks. You recovery is a hard, tiring, long way a path full of mistakes, disappointments and admirations. As a beggining you have to admit to youself you are an addict. If so that confession you will sense in you stomach, it is that kind of feeling you cannot mix up. But it takes time.
Thank you but I'm already aware I am an addict. I have an addictive personality. It's not a secret and I am ashamed...and I own that. I need to break these habits. I need help and direction. If directing my addictive personality elsewhere is NOT fixing the problem then I need help controlling it.
@yellowField6986
Ok) Then first tip: you can't control your addiction. It's impossible. There are comletely different methods you have to comprehend.
So i have a question: what are you going to do? What you thoughts about it?
Thanks for responding. I'm not sure. I've never seen a therapist "one on one" but I've been to groups and they don't really help because they all seem to lean on "God" (which to me is another illusion)...I'd say I'd have to agree you with on your analysis of addictions. I guess I just tell myself it's ok because only good things have come from those particular addictions.
@yellowField6986
There are some AA groups for non-belivers, online as well.
There are also Smart Recovery groups, for not religious people. Though i think AA is also fits all but it;s just my opinion ;}
