Daily Mental Health Log Day: 1
Today went ok, i got up and went somewhere for the first time in like a week it was good everyone was happy to see me and i helped with making lunch being busy helps me not think about porn or masturbation anyway i hung out for awhile talking to people and stuff later on i went for a really long walk to find my inner peace in the moment it was nice i sat on swings and just took in nature i was so calm in that moment nothing else mattered it was so calm so nice i thought about past experiences and things from my past some sad some not it was very bitter sweet then at 2 pm i went home and crashed it was nice to have one day where i could just be at peace and not think about anything and i thank God every day for those days so that maybe i can deal with the ones that are going to be impossible to deal with, sadly night time is the hardest time thats when my addiction kicks up the worst so i hope i can find a chat or something to distract me maybe some kind of skill or something. i hope i can continue my fight i dont want to go back to the slavery of addiction.
@SheIsAfighterXx Hi! First of all I would like to thank you for the idea of keeping a journal as a forum post! This is helpful for yourself to keep a track of your own progress but can also be very empowering for others too. It's a brilliant idea! Every type of addiction can be quite challenging to deal with. It may be useful for you to find the deeper causes that may be creating this need for you in order to cope. We are here to support you and everything will fall into place eventually. Thank you for sharing your challenge with us!
@sheisafighterxx reading your journal gives me an insight on people with this addiction. Keep fighting you got this!
Daily Mental Health Log: Day 2-3
yesterday was rough i stayed home i knew that was a mistake, it always is i went to the park and roller-skated when things got rough and i went and visited my grandmother it was nice shes always so happy to see me then things went bad i got into a fight with my viper abusive mother shes been worse then ever since she quit her job and is taking it out on me and everyone else
i dont really know what else to say things are different now. Im trying very hard to keep hope that things will get better soon I have to remember what im fighting for and not to give up now im off to a great start and this is war.
@sheisafighterxx one day at a time. You got this!