I think, I am addicted to escapes
I am a girl living in tipical Indian house with my toxic parents and judging, criticizing, unworthy to trust, ill intended family community.
I simply stopped going out, engaged myself in games and manuwa except studies.
Whenever I feel I couldn't handle or irritated or overwhelmed i just leave without explaining anything which makes everyone give up from me.
@lilykun34lotus hang in there , I hope things will get better for you
It sounds like you’ve been carrying a lot at home, and I can understand why you’ve found ways to escape when everything becomes too overwhelming. When you feel criticized, misunderstood, or unable to trust the people around you, withdrawing and getting lost in games, manga, or other things can become a way to get some peace from everything for a while.
And the part where you leave without explaining when you’re overwhelmed makes me think you may not be trying to hurt or reject people—you might simply be trying to protect yourself when you don’t have the energy to explain what’s happening inside. I can imagine how lonely it must feel when that then makes people give up on you.
You don't have to explain everything perfectly here. If you want to talk about it, I’m willing to listen without judging you. What usually happens inside you right before you feel like you need to escape?