Recovering from sex addiction

Does anyone else feel like love isn't real?

Sometimes I feel like addiction and past toxic relationships have turned me numb. For the longest time, the only way I saw myself was as an object. I never took time to understand what I like, what I want and what I need.

It genuinely hurts me so much that I've never shared an intimate moment with someone I love. It was always meaningless, without feelings, without anything. I always ended up feeling used, and I quickly got addicted to that feeling.

It's so hard to not give in to your past habits and old ways. Everyday feels like a fight that you know you can't give up