The Invisible Plague

I wanted to share with the world that I have a stimulant Addiction and tomorrow I am finally going to a rehab center which is my first step ever towards healing. The fear was removed from my body today randomly. My Stimulant of choice is methamphetamines.

Before that I had all kinds of addictions such as porn, nicotine, alcohol, weed etc. Once methamphetamine became a regular thing in my life though all those things disappeared and frankly were inferior to it and it's ability to addict and deceive. I have been actively using (low dosages only) for a year or so now. It is not as people portray it in the internet and in movies. It did not steal my life, it did not steal my job, my money, my achievements, my health. Or atleast so I thought... because what it actually did was it vanished. I stopped seeing it one day and I still do not see it. Even though I haven't stopped using I simply do not see it anymore, I can not blame my problems and my downfalls on my meth addiction, because I can not see and correlate it. and all the things that I had lost and lose to this day usually find another thing to blame.

The only reason I certainly know I have a problem is that I have constant tachycardia now and I simply have a sixth sense that sleep deprivation, cortisol and hunger causing tachycardia and a bunch of other minor problems as of now will kill me one day instantly.

Seek help, now is always better than too late