i keep going back to sexual addiction

Would you like to talk about it with someone? I'm available to listen and discuss with you, if you would like to try that. Maybe we can help each other? I'm struggling too, and it would be nice if we could support each other, or to at least try to do that. Let me know if you would like to try, and if it doesn't work out, we have nothing to lose. Either way, I wish you well; every problem is eventually solvable, it's really just a matter of time. Hang in there. 🫂

I'm sorry you've been feeling so down.

I want to say that giving your life to Christ was one of the best decisions for me.

I was not a sex addict but actually a worker in the adult industry. I honestly do not know what my body count is to be honest. It could be 40 or 50. For a really long time I lived with guilt and shame and truly thought there was never going to be anyone to really love me and that I was worthless

I really can't give you all the answers in this thread it will take time. I'm here though to respond as much as I can. I will say

1. You're not gross. No matter how many mistakes you make or poor choices, it doesn't define who you are. The real you. The you that has things talents and things that you enjoy doing. You are not defined by your actions alone

2. You're not a horrible person. You're a human being just like we all are. Maybe this act that you do is a disservice to yourself right now because it brings you so much shame. I'm confident that you can overcome this and know that you are a great person even when you do things that don't make you proud or happy

3. I hope that you are able to find action that you can take to get you closer to feeling better. I don't know why you're currently taking these actions but I hope through time and work you can find that out

I have a really great husband now and a great family which I never thought would happen in a million years back then. I gave up those things even though for many months I would fall back into doing them. Eventually I did completely stop and never looked back. I really hope and know that can happen for you too!