I think my BF is doing heroin
So me and my high school sweet year got back together a little over 2 years ago after about 7 years apart , I had gotten out of an abusive 5 year relationship and I knew that my high school sweet heart would never treat me the way my ex did. I already knew the my BF was doing percs because he did them back in high school but a few years ago he shattered his ankle and it’s now completely metal and he deals with pain from it on a daily basis. Him doing percs bothered me but I understood because of his ankle. About a year ago we had to move in with his mother and brother and his brother does harder drugs and I believe that since then my bf has started doing the same drugs as his brother again, we’ve since moved back with my parents and my bf spends hours at a time in the bathroom Iv found him sleeping on the toilet bent over with pieces of foil with brown stuff on them on the floor . I have found him like this multiple times and have so many of the foils it’s ridiculous. I have pictures of him and videos of him looking like he is nodding out or spacing out while standing looking like he’s gonna fall over, he leaves for hours not telling me where he’s going says he’s walking to 711 and will be gone for the rest of the day , he has even stolen over 1000 from me .He keeps telling me that it’s Roxies and that he only does it when his pain is really bad but it’s seeming to be a daily thing and Iv caught him in so many lies I can’t trust anything he says ever I don’t believe anything he says , we have sex maybe once a month. I’m pretty sure he is cause of my headaches that I used to get daily but luckily have slowed down , I feel like I’m losing my mind not to mention I have a 7 year old son who absolutely adores him they have such a great relationship and I love him so much and I want to be with him but I also don’t but I’m scared if I kick him out then I’m gonna get a call that he OD’d or worse and it terrifies me, idk what to do !
Aww bless you, I don’t really have much advice but I just wanted you to know I understand how this feels. Have you actually asked him if he is taking drugs?
I was in this situation many years ago in the end I left him as I didn’t want to bring a child up in that environment. Although it he wasn’t directly seeing much I just didn’t feel it was right. I don’t know if that was the right thing to do. As I loved the guy so much and have not found anyone I loved as much as I loved him since.
The thing is unless he is willing to stop this is going to be how your life will be. Can you live with not being told the truth? Not knowing if what your being told is true or not? It drives you nuts or it did me. You sound lovely and deserve a healthy relationship not one where you are being betrayed, as that is what is happening when someone is taking drugs behind your back.
It’s very difficult situation and I hope you find the decision that suits you and your son the best.
He knows that I’m aware of what he’s doing but I know he’s lying about what drugs he’s actually doing, and how often he does it. I literally just caught him in the bathroom doing it like 10 mins ago and of course he tried to deny it at first and then had some bullshit excuse. Our door handle for the bathroom is messed up so if you look closely you can see into the bathroom and I know it’s messed up to peak in on someone in the bathroom but this is how Iv caught many times or I’ll see that he’s asleep on the toilet so I’ll open the door and sure enough there are foils at his feet Iv only been awake for about an hour this morning and he’s been in there the whole time idk how long he has been in there before I woke up . It’s thanksgiving morning and this is the shit I wake up to . I try to not care about it so much but I can’t stand this anymore Iv done so much for him and dealt with so much because of him and I’m reaching my breaking point.