Addiction and depression

Hi everyone i'm 21 and I've been struggling a long time with this problem(porn) and the more that I think of quitting it the more I fall deeper into this addiction but still after realizing that this was the truth and there is no way to run for it I gave up I basically become looking into fetish , BDSM and even Shemales well hold your thoughts and stick with me for a moment even I when look back at my self and see how much my taste have worsened I ask my self how could I stood so low (Ps I no have problem with trans people and I respect everyone) and here goes the struggle again i basically fall in depression and I become having these thoughts : Do I want to be like this sh*t I'm watching? am I turning gay since I like seeing "a girl" with a male genitals being fuc*ed .these thoughts are making me paranoid at the moment even though I read In some forums that shemale porn is conceived for straight guy but still, I'm afraid that this may affect my social life in the future if it already hasn't I should mention that I'm genuinely not that social I just keep catching up from time to time with my old friends from high school otherwise I'm living the aftermath of a brake up with a girl I knew in the university that I'm attending to I never been so addicted to porn in my life since then idk maybe I'm escaping the heartbreak that I faced or just an old bad habit who grew up so badly suddenly . As you all can see, it's really complicated, I'm lost , i' m drowning helpless...(PS : probably reading this will make make you say what a pervert !! But still, just to clear things up I'm no way near a pervert in the real life I have huge respect for women and I feel at ease talking with girls )

Any interaction is welcomed just let me know your thoughts ^^