Addiction, porn

I rly wanna vent about this, and hopefully get help.

my life is pretty messed up, depression, anxiety disorders, loneliness etc and lastly I'm addicted to porn. when I watch porn, I *** and after I'm done I get angry at my self, to much self hatred self hatred, but again I find my self mast**ting again. I can manage the other *** up part of me but the hatred and anger towards myself *** is eating me up but the addiction seems to have taken over me (sadly).

I've tried getting help from online friends but they are not helpful, cuz everyone says *** is normal so I don't get the kind of help I need, it might be normal, yes, but it does not make me feel good about my self.

I've tried to quit many time, the long I've done without *** is 4week (twice) but then the unresistable urge just take over.

I just need help but at this point I'm scared I can get over it and I'll just keep hating my self