Erectile Dysfunction at 15
Hello, my name is Saja. Im 15 years old and Im severely addicted to pornography. I started watching when I was super young (about 6 or 7) and was immediately hooked. Even though I was so young and couldnt even process what was happening I loved it. Every single week I would hop on my family computer and just watch. As I started to grow up and learn more about sex and masturbation I started watching porn even more. My pornography use slowly adapted from once or twice a week, to every single day, to multiple times a day, and finally, to just watching it in my spare time trying to find good videos for later. My life revolves around porn, however I didnt see a problem with this lifestyle until recently. Ive had four sexual encounters so far and each one of them has been a negative experience for me. I couldnt get an erection. Its so embarrassing. At first I blamed it on the anxiety but later debunked that theory as I was completely calm during the third and fourth time. I knew I had a pornography addiction but I didnt know how impacting it could be on my sex life. Why can I get hard when I watch porn but not when I have actual sex? This whole situation is bringing my self confidence down and its making me afraid to talk to girls. I dont even want to have sex anymore. Im so scared of it. It feels like theres something wrong with me. I need help, what can I do? Ive tried to quit watching but I relapse all the time. Any suggestions help. Thanks.
@saucysaja
Hi Saja. I've experienced the same thing, and my answer here is based on my own actual experience. I've also been watching porn for years, only, I didn't start as early as you did. I watch porn and masturbate almost every single day, and sometimes, I can do so multiple times a day. After experiencing sexual encounters, I can conclude that when we watch porn and masturbate, we're looking for that "first time feeling", which is very ecstatic. After countless times of masturbating and watching porn, we become bored of the feeling and gradually become unable to get "turned on", or become fully erect as quickly as we did during the first days of watching porn. If we're talking about how quick, I think it's different for every person, and there may be many factors such as how often we watch porn, how often we masturbate, etc.
This is just my assumption, but I think refraining from watching porn and masturbating is the only way aside from going to a clinic and getting a doctor's help. If what makes it difficult is because you're always enticed to watch more porn, you could fill your mind with something productive and try to always be doing other things. For example, if you have a lot of assignments and tests, you could focus your mind on them and get things done. When you get tired, immediately take a break such as chilling or taking a nap, or having a good night's sleep (without watching porn and masturbating first, of course. My problem here is that I'm too used to masturbating before going to sleep; otherwise, I won't be able to fall into deep sleep, but I think you're not experiencing this). You don't have to 100% quit, though. I think it's enough to just lengthen the "pause" until you feel you're recovering.
Hope this helps.