How does sexual compulsive behavior feels like to you?
I am personally in search for some inputs and thought about this subject.
How do you feel after acting out your behavior? porn, cyber sex, prostitute, whatever it may be.
I've only found general information about shame and guilt after the compulsive behavior is accomplished.
Does it feel like your brain has been hi-jacked and you have no control of your actions? do you even know what you're acting out can potentially hurt the ones you love the most?
Any input or your personal experience will be greatly appreciated. Have a good weekend everyone!
it hurts so good!
This is a very sensitive topic for me and i dont want to type to much but what i can say is i know my brain can feel guilty after, :) i hope that can help even though i didnt type much haha
@Peter1447
It's indeed a sensitive topic for many. Thank you for sharing your expereince anyways. Hope you have a good day
it's depressing i feel disgusting and embarrased usually 
@GoodTrouble19
hello, thank you for your reply. I can't speak for everyone but what you described seems to be a common emotional response. I can see how someone can feel the way you do. Thank you for sharing and hope you have a good day.
Im gonna write a little on here because Im having some impulsive and compulsive thoughts today. Lately I came to terms with something I always knew about myself. I cant really be present and relax or release unless I have a connection with someone. Having casual sex really helped drive this point home for me. However, dealing with sex addiction causes this reality to get ran over in my mind sometimes. The last time I felt this way I drove two hours to have sex with a girl I just met online. We talked otw the whole time and I felt pretty relaxed with her and safe; but still she was a total stranger. I briefly looked at her pics but didnt even care that much what she looked like; all my thinking was taking place below the belt. When I got there she didnt even look the same as her so so pictures; but willing and ready she was. We ended up having sex all night and I could not sleep or relax the whole time, at all. I just kept my eyes closed and did my thing; feeling somewhat empty and somewhat like a primal wild animal. She was texting me a lot the next few days and I communicated how I have this addiction and I dont even think we could or should be friends. This was hard because I hate the idea of hurting anyones feelings but it did feel right. I deleted her number but today remembered I still have her snap. I feel like snapping her to come stay with me tonight but I know it would be just like using her and Id end up feeling the same way..
The guilt afterwards is real and aweful. I have fought with this, I used to get to a point where I was just unavle to think clearly. I convinced myself that if only I new only I got hurt. I was hurting my wife, but I was unable to stop. As long as my mind was drugged with lust I was unable to think.
It would feel like a higher power took over control, I often felt like there was a little angel on one shoulder and a devil on the other. I would hear their doscussion in my head. The devil usually won.
I am very relieved to be better now and to have found a more positive higher power. It truly is horrible to live like that, luckily there is help. I am now trying to make amends to all the people I have hurt. I'd be happy to answer any more of your questions, feel free to contact me