PORN AND SEX ADDICTION

I have been struggling with my porn addiction every since I’ve had access to the internet and have been masturbating long before that.

I always thought that I just had a high sex drive and could potentially be a nymph. While doing more research I speculate that I turn to sex for a quick release of endorphins.

now looking back at my younger self, the one who felt like she was expressing her sexuality is now terrified of what porn is doing to the mind.

I’ve noticed that I turn to porn when I don’t feel good and sometimes bored. I have shame in it because I’ve never told anyone close to me before and the people I do open up to (usually strangers) just tell me that watching porn is “normal”.

I don’t want to NORMALIZE porn anymore.

I though I had control over my porn addiction and could stop….now years later I’m still waiting for that day to come….

It feels so ugly and deceitful to hid apart of myself to everyone I know. It kind of feels like I can never truly be open and vulnerable to them since I’ve been battling this addiction at a very young age and never brought it to the surface.

in hopes of creating this post on the porn addiction thread, I want to open up my circle and connect with people who are dealing with a similar issue and are currently taking action to manage their addiction. I’ve read on another post, someone talking about finding a partner and holding each other accountable and I personally would like to try this out! I’ve had many slip up’s before and at this point don’t care how many times I fail in order to be able to manage my addiction effectively. I am ready to start healing and open new doors of opportunity!

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btw, I have tried replying to some of y’all’s posts but unfortunately I get an error message saying that I do not have permission. Anyone else receiving this?

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