Porn & Alcohol Addiction

23 year old male, I have a happy life and career outside of these 2 vices which I always seem to come back to for comfort. I always feel my best and most confident when sober. I partly think this addiction stems from behavior in my childhood being exposed to it at a young age and starting early it became my go-to way to deal with stress/anxiety. I almost relish feeling down, pathetic, and bad about myself and want to keep coming back to it no matter how good things are. Currently, in my life many people view me as someone who has his shit together, someone to look up to, and is damn near perfect. Sometimes this pressure become so insurmountable, I just want to fucking escape into my own vices and sadness because it's just so comforting. Recently I haven't been able to get past a week of sobriety with some important projects I want to accomplish coming up, and I've had enough of my own BS tbh. I've done months before, but I just can't seem to get back on track and end this madness once and for all. Reaching out here for anyone feeling similarly, would be glad to build a friend/support group with like-minded folks.