Sexual addiction and disruptive behaviour

Hey everyone, this is my first time writing this out in the public. Since a young age I stumbled upon online websites that allowed you to have video call strangers, sexting and pornography and I have on and off indulged in most of these activities. Most of the times it is not what out of desire but out of maybe a habit or just the lack of having people around. I just have this want to being in that zone exploring and being vulnerable to someone. I was off it for years however the patters have picked up recently and I find myself to be on those sites frequently, just being around there, talking.. wanting idk what. It gets difficult at times but I don't know what else to do and how else to distract my mind. This is something that comforts me easily but also leaves me with a guilt afterwards. It's difficult to explain but I tried my best. I hope I am not alone in this