im addicted to s*x and m*sturbation

hello guys, i just want to share my inner struggles here because i dont have anyone to tell my dark secret, id been in 10 year relationship with my bf and we did s*x for the first time after 10years of relationship in the hotel, we got intense because we deprive ourselves of having s*x because i came from strict and conservative family, i know im not a saint, we do things in private, when my bf came in our house, we secretly do something in the bathroom, i know its bad and very shameful to do but i think we cant control our s*xual urges anymore, and then after we do something, at night i feel like im still hanging on what we did and i do something by myself at night, if you know what i mean, i try to overcome this many times and i just been relapsing,