ADHD
I have been struggling a lot of paying attention to a lot of details, following instructions and creating fantasies all over my head. When someone talks to me I get lost all the time and my mind just gonna float out of nowhere, when someone gives me instructions I can't catch up no matter how many times they are gonna repeat it. My boyfriend and I fight a lot because he thought I am not always paying attention to him every time he talks but the reality is, it's so hard for me because my mind just go in no where, it's either I am thinking another things like things I did last 5 years ago or things I will do later and even worst if I imagining things that really impossible. It is very intentional. I am very impulsive person and can't even organize things. I am like this since I was 11 years old and I really thought it was just normal. Now, it affects me so much especially in my work.
The problem here is, I didn't want to make self diagnosis so what I did was I went to a doctor in one of biggest hospitals here in my city. I spent more than I imagined, but he didn't help me with it nor told me what's the real problem was. He just gave me vitamins c which was so annoying because my problem is my mind. I can buy vitamin c anywhere and anytime. I tried to told him many times about my problem and what he can say but still he kept on insisting me to buy his vitamins c. I was so mad because first, it was way more expensive than I thought and second I didn't have the peace of mind on what's really going on in me. And the sad part is I can't afford to see another doctor again and still I don't have the peace of mind if I have adhd or what and how can I treat this because it's a burden of my daily life.
Very unintentional*
@cenavis I'm not a doctor, but it sounds like you're experiencing challenges that are impacting your daily life. It's important to consult with a healthcare professional for a proper diagnosis and guidance on managing your symptoms. If you're unable to see another doctor right away, consider looking for affordable or community health clinics, or exploring telehealth options where you can consult with a healthcare professional remotely.
@blindGrace277
Some really great practical suggestions here Grace. Thank you so much for sharing them in such a nice numbered (adhd friendly) way!
Fox 💚
@cenavis
This is so relatable and I appreciate you for sharing this.my exam is coming up next week and I can seem to focus. Though I self diagnosed myself but I'm pretty sure my parents would say it's stupid of I told them I have ADHD.
Anytime I carry my book to read, that's when i convince myself that I should play a level of my game or read a chapter of the novel I'm reading.
One level and a chapter leads to 20 levels and 100 chapters. Sometimes I forget to eat because I spend a lot of hours hyperfocusing on things that are not important. After spending the whole day and night doing that, I wouldn't be able to read because it would be as if my brain has shut down and the next thing I do is to sleep. It's really affecting me a lot and I'm not one to make plans and to-dos.
@ImperfectSaint
Thanks for taking the time to reply to Cenavis <3
I'm sorry you feel like your parents wouldn't be supportive if you mentioned you thought you had ADHD. That's a tough position to be in. I'm so glad you've found this space here.
Hyperfocus is such a blessing and a curse! I totally agree that planning and making to-do lists are not how our minds naturally work at all, although I've found having some mini routines really helps me get started.
Hope you've managed to have a good rest and here's a reminder to eat some food :)
Take care,
Fox 💚
@cenavis
Hi Cenavis,
Firstly, thank you so much for reaching out here in the ADHD Support forum. I found it hard to reach out to spaces like this before I had an official diagnosis but I'm so pleased that you've shared your experiences with us now.
Like others have said, we're not medical professionals but I can tell you that I (someone with ADHD) can relate to a lot of what you were saying about thoughts wandering, trouble paying attention and finding it hard to understand instructions.
Please know that you're not alone in these struggles and that you have a whole community here who can empathise with you and share what helps them <3
Learning about ADHD and other people's experiences of it has helped me feel so much better about my own brain. Sharing how my brain works with loved ones and sharing information about ADHD has helped my friends and family understand my and be more supportive in general too.
Other things that help me are
- doing exercise
- resting when I need to
- yoga
- anything creative that gets me out of my head for a bit e,g, lego building
- being around other ADHDers
I hope that helps a little and things feel less stressful soon,
Take care,
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