Relationship OCD Struggle

Hi everyone,

I’m not diagnosed yet, but I have suspicions of having an OCD, specifically Relationship OCD now, and I’m really exhausted by my intrusive thoughts, I feel like I need someone to talk with about them, and see if they are actually silly and not as serious as my brain makes it. Even tho I feel really weird and embarrassed for sharing such silly thoughts, but ocd’s spiral is so exhausting, I’m exhausted and I’m exhausting my partner with it, I find a little tiny detail even from his past that sends me into spiral for days, even tho he is a really good person that never done anything bad.