Anxiety, depression name it

I'm a sixteen year old who just gave birth four days ago and I just got discharged today but I haven't seen or held my baby, the birth was a very early and premature one so I was told he had to be moved to another hospital to be put in an incubator. After being discharged all I really want to do is to see or at least feel my baby even if it's once, but my mom has refused to give me information about my baby's location, with excuses that she wants me to get my life back and not be held back by a child conceived by mistake, but I see things differently, I know she cares about me and wants the best for me as raising a child could be difficult but I don't want to be separated from my first seed. I miss him so much but I don't even know what he looks like, my mom threatened to disown me if I continue about the discussion or ask to see my baby again. I want to cry out loud and scream but there's no one to talk to and I'm all alone, it's eating me up badly