Anxiety spirals

TW: SI

Ok hi, I'm somewhat new here, I haven't been on this app a whole lot, but I can tell that I'm starting to become really anxious because a friend has not texted me in a week and I'm worried they killed themself and I know that's probably irrational but I feel like they actually did and I don't know what to do. I'm also feeling really tired and I'm staring off into space and I've lost interest in collaging aand roller skating so I can tell that's probably my depression and it's really annoying because it feels like I either have high depression or anxiety, and I just want to not suffer. I'm starting school soon and I feel like it might lead me to having a psychotic break so I don't know what to do with myself anymore.