Anxiety (the truth)
I've had it all my life I think. I didn't call it that for a long time because it didn't present as it looks to other people. You know like I'm very quiet so my anxiety it looked like me smiling. You know that meme of the person sitting in the car and it says screaming inside that's what my anxiety looked like. I only called it anxiety the last five years if that. I've realised these past well year really that my anxiety is because of other people. Like right now for example I'm anxious because the gas and electricity needs to be paid. I sent a message saying this to the people in my house but I've heard nothing. The bottom line is I hate relying on other people for money. I'm also anxious because of my universal credit appointment tomorrow. Like really other people are the problem. I spent my life thinking or trying to convince myself to get over it. I was considered shy as a kid (btw, I now know it was autism) my thinking was I just need to do better. I just need to get a better environment. I truly need to remove the things which include people that are causing me pain. I need to be around people who feel the same as me.
@PrettyUnique2025
Hello, I'm sending a saying that I say in my head at least once per day:
Those that mind-Don't matter and Those that matter-don't mind. I had to learn to advocate for myself which was hard for me because I am so non-confrontational "Because arguments turned into fights", (more often than not). I try to avoid my triggers and try to stay on a positive outlook and or perception, because the other side is grim and depressing. We must hold our heads up, and stake claim to our personal space and tell people to please take a couple steps back. But that's a story for another day! Sending strength and I want you to know that 5 years ago I was really suffering anxiety and wound up in the hospital for 2 weeks and then after that I went to an intensive out patient program for 4 weeks all day long, and then partial out patient 6 week program, in that time I had over 75 groups sessions and learned some valuable new coping tools and discovered I have PTSD, anxiety and depression. 4.5 years ago I got out of the hospital and into a veterans program which helped me get housing and during this whole time I had 3 therapists at the same time, and began taking medications for my mental health. I had to learn to get out of my own way and take what was recommended. I have not had a terrifying anxiety attack in over 2 years about. I've had some anxiety moments even a few that lasted almost a week. I write a lot to help myself I also talk to Listeners on 7Cups, and get busy in the forum on the needs reply team. Its rewarding and gives me a sense of purpose. "We all need that" tag me any time
Blessings, Day