Anxious about my future + looks

I’m a teenager, 13, currently just entered 8th grade. Time goes on really fast and I’m worried about it. I kept overthinking about my future and my family/friends. I’m afraid of separating from them and continuing my life alone. My parents started asking me about college and it kind of triggers me more. I always feel talentless. I feel not enough. I have low self-esteem. I’m anxious about not having a bright future ahead. I know I have friends and a loving family currently, but leaving them feels like a whole challenge for me. I’m afraid that I will have no one to open up to.

Asking my family to bring me to a therapist was also hard. I don’t want them to worry about me. I don’t want them to feel my pain. I want them to be happy without knowing all this.

Plus, I’m also hating my looks rn. Boys in school keeps calling me “Transgender” because they think I’m too ugly to be a girl. I tried to look more feminine but somehow I felt embarrassed. I am a woman, and I know that. I have no idea how to get into relationships like other girls did. Maybe it’s because of my looks??

that’s all I can say. I’m sorry for opening up. Thanks for reading!!

-Mona