Anxious and on medication for 8 years

Cannot share enough as i have been suffering emotional harm. I was in a relationship with a female. Now I want to be fluent in critical thinking skills, presentation skills and writing skills. I want to acquire knowledge, understand complex issues as well. I am currently in pre final year of law. I am highly demotivated to go to classes. I am anytime scared that people might judge me on my emotional harm and anxiety. I am not able to able to pay attention to people's reaction many a times when i interact with them. I am lost in my own world. I need help