Extreme anxiety these last few weeks - work, personal , obligations
Because of some very unusual work problems, I’ve experienced anxiety and depression, the last few weeks to a degree I haven’t in decades.
There are also some personal issues that are adding to the anxiety.
And to top it off, the day after tomorrow, I am in charge of an event I’ve been planning for months with old colleagues and over 40 people are attending and I don’t want to disappoint people but I’m afraid my anxiety and depression is going to show.
I think just talking it out a little bit might help. So thank you for listening.
@dagurasu
I am inviting you join me in the sharing circle chat group ! 😊
How does that work?
Anyway, it’s morning now. I’m trying to calm down and get into a better mood for the event tomorrow. I don’t want to disappoint everybody who’s coming. My former professor is even flying in from California to participate. It will mark 40 years since I came to Japan.
I have been looking forward to it, and people have been helping me plan it. It’s just that the work problem, which is a technical issue that is sort of scary, is preoccupying my entire mind. I keep on thinking that we’re at the edge of a cliff at the edge of the world and I’m going to disappoint this really important customer I’ve had for years if the whole thing fails. fortunately there were no errors today, but I still don’t know the solution.
And my dog isn’t helping. I don’t know who said that dogs are supposed to help with stress.
@dagurasu Everyone wants you to succeed. Look around the room. Everyone wants success from your efforts.
They do. But they’re not the client I’m worried about. She’s being nice about it, to a certain extent. But her whole enterprise depends on my software not blowing up.
There doesn’t seem to be much response here. Maybe I’m posting in the wrong section. Or maybe my post is just boring. Anyway, I will try my best to put on a good face for the event tomorrow because otherwise, it would just be selfish and spoiled things for all the people who are attending.