Feeling alone
I'm so incredibly unhappy with every aspect of my life. My family just says that I need to get out of my house but it's not that easy. I barely want to get out of bed let alone get dressed to leave my house. I have no money to spend running around finding stuff to do. I have no friends. No hobbies. I feel like just a waste of space. I don't know what I like, don't like, or what I want or don't want. How can someone live like this????
On the days I want to leave my house, I'm exhausted after I shower and then I don't want to go anywhere. My clothes don't fit, I've gained so much weight and I have no confidence at all. I'm so tired and the only time I'm at peace is when I'm asleep. I wish time would stop for a second so I can rest without feeling guilty that I'm wasting my days away.
I don't have anyone to vent to, but today is a bad day and hopefully it will be over soon.
I’m so sorry. I hope you get a breath of relief.
I know this sounds counter intuitive with how exhausted you feel, but you have to force yourself to go out. It doesn't have to be anywhere specific, and it may feel overwhelming to even walk out the front door but it will get easier the more you become used to it. Just a few short months ago I was feeling exactly like you describe. I thought I would die from the anxiety but I made a promise to myself to keep going out ... anywhere. I was wearing ratty old shorts because I had nothing else to wear. I can tell you it hurt like *** at first but now it's easier and I even reached out to my family to help me get some jeans that fit. We went to a local thrift store so it was really cheap. Just having my sister with me helped me go. I know your experience will be different than mine but I just want you to know its possible to get through this. Take care
@SerinaSerious
Hey, it will be over. I wish I can tell you it will be over right now at this moment. But I can't because I don't know. This too shall pass, every tunnel has an end, every winter meets spring, and morning always, always comes after the darkness. Without a fail. Don't give up and I hope you have the energy and the courage to keep it going. You got this. You can do it. You are going to be just fine.