HELP, I’M LOSING FAITH IN MYSELF

I got married 4 days ago, and believe me when I say, that was supposed to be the happiest day for both me and my husband, but I can only remember it as the day I received nothing but TRAUMA. Still does. I’m losing touch with everyone I care about. I wish I could write everything down here. I’m trying really hard… but it only results in “I can’t anymore” Idk why am I even here… I feel soooo alone. What do I do? Whom do I go to?