Health anxiety
Hi all this is my first time posting here!
Some context: I’ve been super stressed at my job and am an overachiever. I am not building skills at my current job and all the work I do is useless and never makes it to customer (I’m in software development sort of). It’s gotten so bad this past year that in therapy the main thing I cry about is my job. The job market sucks and I’ve applied to over 200 jobs.
Any way back to the present. Around a week or a week and a half ago, I started feeling some tension in my jaw, neck and head. My head felt “weird” not like a headache headache, but the feeling of your hair when it’s oily and starts to hurt. I remember I started feeling this when I went to the office so that was also around last Tuesday maybe. Fast forward to now, I have upper left back and shoulder pain, no more tension in my neck, but some phlegm (from idk where), and daily headaches 🥺. I also had some weakness in my upper arms (mainly one arm but sometimes the other).
I’m visiting family overseas and my dad doesn’t want me seeing a doctor here 😣 However, I did message my doctor back home what to do and she did say to get evaluated in my dad’s home country. I rarely ever get headaches and the last time I got headaches that lasted more than 3-4 days was when I was allergic to some vitamin 6 years ago before starting college 😭
I think I’m still going to have my aunt take me to the doctor here and just not tell my dad. I think worst case scenario I strained or sprained an upper back muscle/pinched a nerve. Best case is maybe I am grinding my teeth at night and need a mouth guard. What doesn’t help my anxiety though is my stupid social media algorithms keep promoting scary health stories to me or talks of cancer. 💀😭 any way I think I need to get this off my chest.
@pinkGlobe3083
I'm glad you could get it off your chest here!
Sharing at least allows you to unburden yourself.
I would say, go to the doctors, stop looking at these algorithms and at least the doctor can rule things out and with some support and the right answers, you'll be better able to focus and feel better in yourself!
Wishing you the best!
💕💜
@pinkGlobe3083
You have a difficult situation, and you are great that you are trying to find a solution. It is true, sometimes moral or psychological problems directly affect our health. And of course, this has its reasons, but you should be examined by a doctor to exclude terrible things. Parents have their own opinion, but it is not always rational, right? You may not be perfect, but you do everything to be better, I think. So try to go through this with your head held high (but not so much that it hurts). And may everything be as good as possible for you!
Thank you and to the other poster. I think if I’m not better by tomorrow, I will still advocate to get evaluated any way. I think my upper back pain is pretty much gone now but I still have jaw pain and headaches. The problem is my other relatives in this country also think it’s stress so I don’t need to see a doctor 😭
Update: I was able to see a doctor here about my problem and she was able to help. After she told me it was nothing serious, I felt much better. However, I developed a special kind of cyst here in a more embarrassing place and have had non stop anxiety over it. I am flying home today and cannot wait to go home 😭
@pinkGlobe3083
Best of luck with your flight home 💜
I was able to get antibiotics for my cyst and the doctor said I wouldn’t need surgery. That helped a lot but suddenly on Monday and today, I had a lot of weird anxiety symptoms 😭 I wish I knew what was wrong with me.
@pinkGlobe3083
Hopefully it's just some after effects after being feeling drained and it passes soon 💜💕
