Hi everyone, I'm new here

I decided to join the community just to vent.

First of all, I'm a liar when it comes to myself; I'll never let other people see me in a bad light.

Second, I've lost some friends, and it affects me a lot, but I don't know how to express it to someone else without feeling ashamed of myself.

Third, I feel alone outside my social circle. I seem cheerful, but I'm really alone all the time.

And lastly, the truth is, I don't know what to do with my life anymore. I know I'm lucky to be at the school I'm at and to have the family I'm with, but I still feel alone. Of course, it's not sadness, just loneliness, which, frankly, I don't know how much of a difference there is.

Thanks for reading if you see this

(I apologize for the spelling mistakes; English isn't my first language).