How to stop scrutinizing your life

Hey do I'll be having my placement season starting next month and the thing is i see others, feel they've done a lot, feel like what did I do

Like i take stress and have anxiety feeling that time's less then i stress and have anxiety again, waste the time I have with me and then feel bad

Like I'm scared of what if I don't get a good job

Because of this I get overwhelmed easily like smallest of things, i consider them catastrophic, like if I don't get a job then I'll be jobless, need to depend on someone, live a mediocre life and it's frustrating

Also I've asked gpt, gemini as well like is the person late etc, I've narrated the story of being late so many times it feels like a fact maybe it's actually one but still.

And the problem is that i know a lot like i gather advice from seniors etc even though knowing what needs to be done, i constantly tell myself it's late you need time to develop skills etc but even those who don't know everything they get jobs.

You know I've retrospected so much i know the pattern whenever something very important goal comes close I go into this spiral of thinking now what will happen, time's less, now nothing can be done etc and i know this happening right now but still am letting it

I've depended so much on others for every thing to be done i ask how to do it even though i think others also did it on their own

Like my heartbeat increases, i feel this knot in my chest, throat

I'm tired of not living to my potential because of this feeling and I can't tell this all to someone right

There's so much to say but the post is already long enough.