I feel like I don't know myself anymore
Just wanna to let this out my mind, sorry if there would be grammatical mistakes since english isn't my first language. I feel so conflicted right now about myself and I feel like I'm out of touch in reality. I started college a few weeks ago and I thought it was going to be okay. I have some school friends but I couldn't make deep connections with them. They are nice and friendly but it seems like the problem is me. I feel like I lost my social skills and I don't know why. I always acted awkward around them and I couldn't articulate my thoughts properly. I also zone out a lot whenever I'm communicating with them. I'm so mad about myself for it and I don't know what went wrong. It seems like I wasn't myself and I can't help to compare myself to them. Maybe I feel so insecure about myself because they already have what they wanted and I feel like I don't fit in. I don't know what to do and I feel like the more I experience the more worst it became. It feels like I'm a robot and brain-dead because couldn't think of solutions and I'm stuck at this cycle. I would appreciate any advices, thank you
@Fxye Hi there, Im Aya!
From what I have read, I can relate a lot with what you are saying. I think in these instances, you need to remember that with change (going to college, no longer in high school, needing to make new friends, having recently come out of COVID even, etc.) is discomfort and sometimes what seems to be chaos and loneliness, and that is natural. You are going through some big changes right now and that can be overwhelming, and you can start to doubt your current relations, decisions, and circumstances.
My advice to you is to focus on the aspects of your life that you can control like strengthening the bonds you have with your current friends if you feel out of place and want to keep them in your life, or perhaps meet new people- EMBRACE THESE CHANGES.
Life is dynamic and is ever changing, this is something you need to accept and the sooner you do that, the more enjoyable and exciting life becomes.
Perhaps see this circumstance as a new start for YOU. You have the chance to figure out who you are and what you like, the type of people you want to surround yourself with, because you gain this new sense freedom when leaving school and entering college. EMBRACE THIS FREEDOM. It's a matter of perspective, you get to decide if this is going to lead to something incredible for you, or if you're going to let this challenge get the better of you.
I hope this helps, good luck with all that you have to face. I am sure you are more than capable of paving your own road to peace, abundance, and love :)
