I have always been so scared of everything ☹️
I feel like the opposite of gifted. And the worst thing of all is having nobody who cares or wants to help. Sometimes I wish I lived in a better place where people were nicer and I could get help. It feels impossible for things to get better here, I’m completely alone and isolated and none of my family talk to me, I never see them. Every holiday I’m usually alone and my mom is one the phone talking to ppl. I want to get out of here but ever since we moved here, my mom has made things worse for me. I tell her how bad living here is for my mental health but it feels like talking to a wall. I don’t know how to make friends. But I’d really like to do something before I die. The problem is my mom, she’s called the cops on me before when I had a bike and would ride around the neighborhood but I live in an area with lots of boomers who once called the cops on me for barely standing on their yard bc a car came down my street. We have no side walks here so I had nowhere to stand. I just hate it.
i hate living here and I hate seeing ppl online cosplaying half of my reality, as if they’d ever understand. People who have help, people who go out partying on the weekends. All of it
Hey! I've seen you around but I usually stay to myself and a few people I know but Billy Joe Armstrong was a huge part of helping me figure out what to be apathetic for and what not to be. I love him.
I'd be interested in hearing about more of what's going on. Don't think you're not gifted. Everyone is gifted. Some use it more than others but I mean if you have no one to talk to and you're just dealing with your own misery and your own head then I'm really unsure how you hear yourself think. Your gift sounds like a headache atm.
"People cosplaying your reality". I really like that a lot. Yeah I have no idea what your reality is and no one else will ever either. That's not the goal when having someone to talk to. People aren't there to try and understand how you work. Just that you keep working. Your reality is yours to manage but having someone that cares about what's going on in it enough to get them there and listening when ya need it is another story.
I don't care about a lot of things other people do but people I care immensely for.
I can't help you out of your situation but I've has friends that just need someone to get the trash out. I've had friends scream at me. Just to put that emotion somewhere. Or just talk like someone who has some thought in their head. Someone to be human around is the toughest thing to find.
Anyways. I'm here if you need a friend.
Best wishes!
@dapperNest2125 that’s cool you’ve seen me around ya I have tried going into those community group chats but they are usually pretty inactive! When they are active it’s super weird, I think they are much older people…. Idk why I’m even still on here sometimes. I feel like I’m just a caveman writing scribbles on the cave wall 😭 thanks for your nice response.
That’s nice of you to take your friends trash out, sometimes it’s the little things that make a difference yknow? I wish I had someone to do that for, I’ve unfortunately never had that connection with anyone before. You seem really cool. I’m definitely open to talking sometime 🙃
