I just want to be heard ☹️
I really don't know what to do. I just moved to the US and the experience was exciting for me, but I don't leave the apartment, I'm afraid to look for work, I'm terrified that they're rude to me, I really feel like I'm rotting here since I'm just in my bed watching time go by, I feel a disappointment for my family. And add to that the fact that physically I'm not well, I'm a fat girl with many complexes, I think my physique also influences the fact of looking for work since I constantly feel that they can judge me. In the same way I have no one to tell all this to, I feel that I am drowning, that this is already overtaking me, I have no friends, no partner or anything, I feel very overwhelmed.
I hear you. It's a lot to deal with, unfamiliar surroundings and no support system. It's a struggle. If you start slow, things will become manageable and you'll slowly feel better because you are helping yourself and have a focus each day.
Think of it like this, all of us have something we don't like about ourselves, each of us are self conscious, so we don't notice others flaws, because we are too busy concentrating on our own.
So make a plan each day of what you will accomplish. You can register with recruitment agencies, job sites, social media, look out for job fairs.
They can email you potential matches and you can start that way.
For socialising, is there activities you could get involved in?
On this site there is an icebreaker/games section to start you off..
https://www.7cups.com/forum/games/