I lost myself..

I'm at a lost of a words where I stand between my relationship and a mother. Parenting is tough enough but I'm raising such a sweet innocent boy and the last thing I need is him witnessing how toxic my relationship can be. I asked my boyfriend if he's going to bed, he mumbles way too much and believes I'm supposed to hear him. I don't ever get a good night kiss, an I love you, or anything just leaves the room and sleeps. I asked if he's going to bed, I said okay then ignore me too, apparently his mumbling was “I am” but instead I get told “I answered you idiot”

I'm at a point where I've had enough so I shut the door to confront him how I don't appreciate being called names in front of my son and I was told to go away and leave him alone..

I've had enough trying to be this perfect what ever I'm supposed to be considered to him when it does not take me much to upset him..