I'm afraid for me
My mother says I have to leave her house. I'm 19, female, and a recent high school graduate. I graduated last year and took a break to work for a year before going to college. I'm supposed to start this year in the fall. But so many things have happened. I had to quit my job because my boss bullied me. So I'm having a hard time finding a job. And my mom doesn't like the energy I give off. She has depression and anxiety as well as I do, but she's also overly sensitive to where if she doesn't like the way you look, she'd get upset. I didn't admit it to myself yet, but I'm so scared. I have to find a shelter and my city is dangerous. I just wish I didn't have to go through this. My mom has always been dismissive of me because I was a problem child when I was younger. I have no friends, no car, the college I'm going to is a community College with nothing on campus, no relatives to ask either. I was with them last year because we suddenly (my family, siblings, mother.) Had to move because of my landlord. But they kicked me out, basically. mMy stepdad's life is unstable, and my siblings all live with my mother. I'm looking into shelters. Just wanted to rant. Thank you for listening.
Sweetheart you're so brave sharing your thoughts and struggles with us . First of all you sound very troubled and fearful. What I want you to know is that at the end things will work out for you. Can you please expand on this: my mom doesn't like the energy that's I'm giving on
Hi, apologies for the lateness. I'll elaborate;
My mother is an "energy sensitive person", meaning she's highly empathetic. If you're in a bad or good mood, she'd take notice to it right away. I have severe depression. I've had it for quite some time, so my negative feelings usually float atop compared to positive ones. My mother doesn't like it when I'm silent all day or don't respond to her in a way she prefrrs, so she blames my "energy". I try to be conscious of these things, but it's impossible to always tune yourself to what other people are feeling. Hope this makes sense, thanks for listening.
@neonLime7738
Honey you sound such a sweet person. My daughter is only 9 years old so I don't know how things will turn out when she's 19. You mentioned community College which is a great thing. Also why are you being kicked out by your landlord? Do you pay in time?
Oh no, I'm living with my mother. My relatives had kicked me out. My mom and I sincerely don't know why. My mother distanced me from our family on her side because she noticed that they're manipulative or judgemental and they're never there for her. She often helped her siblings and parents out whenever she could, and she just couldn't deal with the disbelief that they'd do that to me. I think they sent me back home because my mother had finally found a place suitable for my siblings and I. Although I keep to myself and follow instructions, I just think they didn't want me there at all. I'm not sure. But my mom is tired of me being home with her. I've been here since December of last year. I had lost my job, and I was getting kicked out by my relatives. My mom often complained about me being here or saying I wasn't trying. I tried Job corps, but they took too long even though I told them I was high risk homelessness. I tried the military and my recruiter kept pushing the date for my recruitment. I could've stuck with the two, but I didn't because I honestly didn't want to go. I know it sounds selfish, but I just couldn't submit myself to that. I finally found a job in March, but shortly quit last month because my supervisor was bullying me and my general manager did nothing of it.
@neonLime7738 So sad to hear that you are going through such tough times.
Your mother sounds like she is wherever she is at, and we unfortunately have no control over others' behavior.
I wouldn't recommend a shelter; I second trying to find help through your school.
Hang in there!