I need help and support
I got eye tics ( excess blinking) when I was 13 yrs old and now i am 26. I was mocked and started to control it and monitor myself .after that I hv been suffering from hypervigilance, self monitoring and social Anxiety. I forgot how to be normal around people. I monitor and control my behaviour, expressions like how to see , where to see , etc and get headache, shoulder and stomach tightness. I am pretending like everything is okay but I am not living just surviving.
@crimsonTree6524 That sounds absolutely exhausting. Spending 13 years constantly monitoring yourself and trying to control something that is out of your control must be incredibly difficult. I can understand how childhood experiences of being mocked, made fun of, or ridiculed have translated into hypervigilance, anxiety, and physical symptoms, too. That must be terrible to go through every day, and I can see why you’d describe it as simply surviving rather than actually living.
