I've wasted so much of the 8.7k i got because of my anxiety and binge eating disorder. Im afraid to tell my parents.

I'm 26 and I've made continuous orders of take out since i got this money in September of last year. I can't believe i let my anxiety get to me like this and i may end up having to have my parents to financially support me a bit.

Im studying to take tests for legal certifications needed for the maintenance field but i get so afraid of my job security that any money i saved or gain, i wast it all. I just get scared that i may never get a job again so i end up thinking "whats the point of having all this money if i can't get anymore? Might as well blow it all out and enjoy it while i have it.". Thats the mindset i have. When i was employed im the opposite.

It feed my binge eating disorder and just been eating take out when i could have eaten at home or gottwn cheaper and more nutritious food. Im so unstable with my job security and i haven't been studying much as i should. I could have gotten everything i needed by now but no. I only have around $200 left and i ceasing with take out right now. Im scared of telling my parents because i may need to have them pay for me to take the tests. 2 of them are $25 each but the other 2 are $100 for each test. They have money but i hate asking for it. I don't want them to get mad at me and it makes me feel infantilized and being a major expense on them.