Need help or advice

Hi I am planning to go study in China, but ever since I paid the initial fees, I have been feeling a lot of regret, confusion, and fear. I feel like everyone around me thinks I am not making the right choice, and some people say that only rich families can send their children abroad, not families like mine. I am the eldest daughter, and I feel responsible for supporting my family, so I’m afraid of disappointing them.

My parents themselves are not completely convinced. Sometimes they encourage me to go, and other times they tell me to stay, find a job here, and forget about studying abroad because of the financial burden.