Pins & Needles

I woke up with a sickness in my stomach. It felt like I was walking through a haze. I tried pushing through the day and went out to get a snack but when I came back I was approached by someone that i barely knew. When I came back to from my snack I was not paying attention to my surroundings. While I was getting out the car and out of the parking lot I sensed a bad feeling but i ignored it bc in my mind I knew I had to keep moving and grab my keys. When I was getting closer to my house my sister said someone was behind me and only left bc she stared him down. This is my worst nightmare is not being aware before something happens. After we rushed in my sister told me she saw this man walking around between my neighbors house. All day this has been freaking me out. A while ago a man tried to get an upper hand on my family and fought them. It’s just me and my sis in my fam so it has scared me that we won’t be strong enough compared to a man if it’s just our family outside…. All my life I have only had bad experiences with men putting me into uncomfortable situations and this is fueling that fear that a men could hurt me if they wanted to. I don’t want to live in fear but I sometimes do and I wish that didn’t have to happen all the time. I may not cope in the healthiest way but I try not things like this shape my reality.