Seperation anxiety after too many things

Hi i’m Jim an 19 year old boy who is hoping to find someone on here who does free therapy to help me since i don’t have any money and i’ll tell my story on here so you all have an backstory:

When i was 11 my father who is very manipulative and agressive left me for marrying my stepmother while i have an tracheacanule, an device that helps me breathe. And during that time i got my first boyfriend, he used to tell me all kinds of promises like: “you’re not alone”. “It’s us against the world” and “you make me the happiest person i’ve ever been” so when i broke up with my first ex my heart got broken and i got seperation anxiety and my last relationship before i got with my current one i got SA’d and i want someone to go with me in dept so i can maybe put this all behind me.

Please i need help