Ways to feel Anxious.

Hi reader, I'm fear, i just tured 25 last month yet I still lack confidence standing straight infront of the crowd. I suffer from social Anxiety, but it's hard to tell people, because in my culture and religion.

Mental issues make you a weak person and expressing them infront of even your friends makes them call you a wuss your entire life.

So, Its very hard for my to speak in groups or even if the other person is dominant I only listen to then and match yes with a yes and no with a no. That's normally how most of conversations go.

Today, I had an important meeting with my team as work and many topics were raised were i had much to say but I wasn't able to speak up and if i did a couple time i was cut of by a dominant person.

Later after discussion, i was lacking in my performance since past month, so I would say i was feeling a pressure. Then I had a discussion with my boss and he was telling me you are doing everything right but just with his voice and talks i was feeling a bit relief but still getting anxious to a point that i could hear my heart beat and my breath got heavy. He was telling me to stay calm and there is no pressure you are pursuing a long-term thing and i will tell you when you have to start picking up the pace but for now you are doing great. But even the relief and calmness was causing my even more anxiety.

I hate myself for not being able to speak my mind and relay the information I'm trying to clearly, words get mixed up my voice shatters i try my best but still i feel embarrassed and anxious after everything said and done.

Thanks for reading, I think a lot so i Mumble a lot so thankyou..