What it is like to have a panic attack?

My hands are tremblingly horribly, my heart is beating so fast that I feel like it could come out of my chest any time, I feel numb, I am running out of breadth, I feel dizzy, my head is going to explode, I can’t think or write or speak or do anything else ,I feel like I am being engulfed by darkness - I know I am having a panic attack, I know I need to calm down and relax myself but I just can’t…no matter how hard I try- I just hope I never have a panic in public- I dunno what people with think about me, it would be just so embarrassing… 

Its like this continuous voice in my head telling me that no matter how much you try, its going to end as a failure. Even before like ordering a pizza, you plan out like a hundred times the how you will speak, how you plan out how you will act, but of course its all useless.

You avoid crowded places as much as you can. You hate to go to parties, gatherings or any sort of functions. All you wish to do is lie in bed all day. You find it difficult to share your problems with people- sometimes you think its easier to say that you’re okay because its just to hard to explain what’s the problem. Many times just because you don’t talk much with people they tend to think that you are rude and egoistic, but that is not the truth.

But like almost any other mental illness, anxiety is also curable, if treated correctly.

I'm not a born introvert not am I now.....it's just this world forced me to behave like this.